I can count on both hands and feet how many times people have told me to fight for what I believe in. We believe just because we believe in it, it is going to work in our favor, right? WRONG, I’m here to tell you if you don’t consult God, it is not going to work in your favor. I’ve been placed in difficult positions lately, from friendships to teachers and family and it just gets tough. You think if your fight is for a good cause nobody will be able to deny you and they WILL. 

Recently I decided to reach out to a state program that my daughter attends because it just hasn’t been flowing right. I’d tried speaking to the teacher and she just wasn’t receptive. When I enrolled her I was told it was Pre-K but they had so many different elements in the classroom I didn’t believe she would learn anything. I’m talking about children ages 3-5, some don’t speak English, they were playing all day and I was just fed up. After getting no where with the teacher I finally had to call in the big dogs also known as the director and state officials. It went from the blame game to the straight up “how much money do you have to put toward this program?” I was shocked because I thought inquiring about a proper education for my soon to be kindergartner would be smiled upon. Sadly it was not and I felt totally defeated, I got off the phone feeling like a dart had been shot into my chest.

I simply had to just pull out woman’s biggest weapon known to man, prayer. I laid on my bed and just poured my heart out to God, letting him know how I felt and asking for his direction. I wanted to get things done on MY timing not giving God the upper hand and letting him work things out. I just felt an urgency to “make them do their job” but God was sitting me down to watch him work. Isn’t it sometimes frustrating when we cant get things our way? Don’t you just despise having to stay in your seat when you feel you were called to action? Well don’t because God has a plan for your hardships and frustration.

After my attempts, I’m still unsure of what the outcome is but I trust and believe he is working things out on my behalf. I truly believe he will not let things continue the way they have been going. Although I want to keep fighting for it, I refuse to get in his way trying to fix things myself. He has promised me in his word that what is meant for my bad, he’ll turn for my good so I’ll rest in that. I also know for without faith it is impossible to please him. I won’t give bible scriptures because I want you to go look it up for yourself. Just know that your crying is only momentarily, it has it’s expiration date and he is going to take care of it, WHEN you leave it to him.

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