Wow, it has been so long since I have done this! I’m excited to be back and ready to share what’s been up with me. I have had one challenging year. I lost my father this year and it seems like that has just flipped life on its head for me. I’ve developed anxiety and depression and that has not been easy.

Today is one of my hard days, one of those days where I just feel like blah. I noticed that the Holiday season is almost unbearable with my dad being gone. It is a daily battle to keep a smile on my face or not go off on someone. I also feel like I’d like to be left alone a lot. I know I’m not the only one feeling this way, right?

Depression is not fun, it isn’t a joke and it can be debilitating. I have made the commitment to myself to keep going. Have there been many times I’ve thought about ending my life? YES! I am choosing to believe that, there is indeed more to keep living for. Each day I continue to tell myself, keep going and I do.

I can share with you that even though I lost my dad and life looks dreary, it isn’t. My father would have told me that everything is going to work out fine and to keep going. My father would be smiling at the fact that I’m going to graduate and receive my Bachelor’s degree in 2018. I’m putting that into the atmosphere, claiming and receiving that right now in the name of Jesus.

I can share with you that I have begun speaking and living my truth. I have begun speaking up for myself, no matter who doesn’t agree. I am finally working towards the life I want. So this year hasn’t been the most favorable, but I am going to make strides daily to live my best life.

I am going to keep moving forward and I know that this will get better. I’m committed to overcoming anxiety and depression. I am also committed to what it shows me and making sure to honor my emotions.

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