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Wow, it has been some time since I have blogged or really done anything related to BFPH. I’m NOT proud of that so here I am trying to revamp it. I remember being in a really healthy spiritual and emotional place when I first started BFPH. Things have changed in my life this year and I’m going to speak briefly about it. This blog (and others) have been on my heart but I just didn’t share it but look out for it because I’ll be posting more and more about my journey this year. Let’s dive right into this blog though.

So, early this year I had the chance to meet a pretty nice guy. We talked, he knew God, he honored my decision to be celibate until marriage and he is a parent. I fell for him rather quickly but kept my feelings to myself until I got the official word for him on his feelings. In April, he expressed to me wanting to keep things light and I was devastated but I went with it. In May, he decided that he wanted more and told me he loved me. I was overjoyed and excited to be in a relationship because after all, I’d been single for 4 years. We communicated well, I was able to open up to him about my past hurts, he was supportive of me reuniting my daughter with her father and just was the man of my dreams. I thanked God nightly for him and we began to speak of marriage a few weeks later. I was really over the moon because as you’ve read previously on my blog I deeply desired marriage and thought God had blessed me with this gift and it was about to happen.

Fast forward down a few more months and I had been getting advice from different sources on what to expect in the next phase of our life. I called my Pastor’s wife for her expertise when we had those little arguments and I was actively preparing to be a wife. Now, I know you can NEVER be fully prepared or prepare to be married but I knew there were little issues I had that I’d need to work on before I could marry this man. I did that work and in my mind all things were a go, for him it was not. Recently, we had a petty argument/misunderstanding that I thought we’d brush over. He had been experiencing mixed feelings and decided he wanted to go another direction with his life. Now this has left me baffled, confused, hurt, shocked and so many other things. I’ve been filled with anger and I’ve acted it out on him and I am not happy about that. You just don’t know how you are going to react to someone who has hurt you very deeply. He has been really vocal about his disdain for my treatment of him. I thought how dare he tell me about how he feels after he has driven a knife through my heart and twisted it? The gall of some people but he is right! Just because I am hurting, my job as a daughter of Christ is to still show love and be kind. But how do you show the love of Christ when you are mad at Christ? Yes, I said it, I am angry with Christ because I felt he should’ve saved me from this pain. That’s a trip isn’t it? I’m smart enough to know that God isn’t at fault for this, I am! My relationship with Christ wasn’t even strong when I entered the relationship but here I was expecting him to honor it. I had begun slipping in my bible studies, engaged in some inappropriate conversations with this man but I expected God to cover me in it?

Well my first and most important priority should have been to get right with the Savior. I should’ve stayed connected to the vine instead of running off trying to become married. I should have been working to become whole in Christ instead of making this man my primary focus and neglecting Christ. Truthfully, God spoke to me MANY times in that relationship and gave me warnings not to make him my mini god. I did not listen because I wanted it so bad, I was willing to run through all the warnings and stop signs to get to my fleshly desires.

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This bible verse just completely wrecked me when I read it. Lately, I’ve been seeking God and honestly it has not been with my whole heart. What I mean by that is, I have been hesitant to completely surrender unto him. I’ve been really honest about my walk and my struggles. I wanted to put in a half effort and get great results and of course I learned, God isn’t going to allow that. I have recently been reading a lot of spiritual books, doing a little meditation and increasing my prayer life. Things have been tense but I still know that God has a plan for me, I just need to be still and trust him.

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Today just so happens to be my daughter’s 6th birthday and although I had a great time, my mind was running. Thinking about how I am going to make ends meet and it became overwhelming. As I pulled down her decorations I remembered that I was supposed to start my Jesus Calling devotional yesterday. I came into my room, book in hand and decided I was going to start reading it. As I began to read the introduction, I felt an overwhelming feeling to lay down. I ignored my body but kept on reading and I heard God saying to me, “surrender”. I kept reading trying to ignore the voice I had heard and I heard it again, “surrender”. Now, I’ve heard of this type of thing but I always quietly doubted it because it hadn’t happened to me.

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I could not even believe that God was pulling at my heart strings like that. He knew my “secret” of trying to run from him so he came and got me. When I say I ended up sprawled out, across my bed with tears streaming down my face, I mean it. All I could do was say, “Lord, I surrender” over and over again! I began to tell him that I’m handing it over to him, the guilt, the shame, the impatience, the impurities, the questioning and doubting him. I could not get up and as I poured my heart out to him, I slowly felt a warm peace come over me. I just laid there with my face in my covers and my eyes closed for a minute as he soothed my worried mind. Before I knew it, all that heaviness I’ve been carrying around for weeks just melted right off of me. I didn’t worry about how people would judge me because of the way my life has been going for the past couple of years. I found comfort in Jeremiah 29:11. I felt comfort in the fact that he has a plan for me and in due time, he will reveal it. I don’t have to stack myself up against someone else’s success because he has me in a special spot. He knows the plans he has for me and my season isn’t here yet but he is working behind the scenes for me. He definitely loves me and he has great things in store for me. No matter how tough things get, he is not leaving me but shaping and molding me. Let’s Pray!

Father God,

I come to you now thanking you for revealing yourself to me in a special way. I thank you for hearing my fears, seeing my tears and coming to remind me of your love for me. Lord, this journey may not be easy but you have not and will not leave me. Father I know that you have my best interest at heart and I bless your name for hiding me until I am more mature spiritually. I know that you have great plans for me and you have come to get your daughter and reassure me that everything is going to be okay. Thank you Lord for loving me even when I didn’t want it. Forgive me for pushing you away and doubting your capabilities in my situation. I surrender unto your direction, unto your word and cast all my burdens upon you because I know you will take care of them. Thank you for sustaining me and continuing to open spiritual doors for me to walk through and learn. It is in your mighty name I pray,

Amen

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I was having a conversation about a recent situation and this bible verse just repeated in my head. It’s amazing how we can be tight with someone and they reveal their heart to you. In the book of  Psalms, Chapter 23 vs. 5 it makes it clear to you that God has a plan when this happens. Sure, like I did,you may wonder if all along this/these people ever were truly for you. In Psalms 23:5 it reads “You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil, my cup overflows”. This verse is so powerful because the pain of releasing toxic, using, just around to get your business or fake friend people is only part of the preparation. God has to purge you of these people because he has amazing things ahead for you. When they turn their back on you, reveal their heart and try to start problems it is only because they can’t go with you. Sure it is hurtful because you thought these were your friends BUT they are not and he is walking you toward true friends. He will make sure they have a front row seat to your success because he shows his power in his works. People believe where you are is as far as you’ll go but they aren’t aware of the God you serve and his plans for your life.

 

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No matter how bad it hurts just remember the goodness of God will cover you. If you are going through these situations and trials he will heal your heart. When you have a heart for God, he swoops down on you and screams to your enemies to back up! He immediately goes to work on your wounds, you just have to be open to the healing process. Yes, you will have good days and bad but it’s all part of the grieving process. The healing for me was to decide not to speak about it anymore but to pray when I’m feeling down. Yes, the people that hurt you will more than likely want an explanation but it is ok to tell them, it’s behind me and I choose to move forward. Once YOU have prayed to God for healing and a forgiving heart, that is the end of it. They can seek their own guidance outside of you! It might sound harsh but you have to remain in the goodness of God. If you relive it with people, you are going to disrupt your progress and get out of the right head and heart space.

 

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In the wake of betrayal and hurt you just get to a point where you decide to move forward. In the bible there are several verses that can assist you in moving on and forward. One thing you can not stop doing is praying, this will bring you through. I believe God has so much in store for me and on the way that he had to excuse people from my life. I’m now more aware of the wolves in sheep clothing so it won’t happen again. Just like in a relationship, you are cautious of who you allow in your life (hopefully) so you have to be that way with potential friends as well. I also know to only entertain people with a heart after Christ. I will entertain people who want to follow Christ but don’t know where to start because they show the desire. I know not to become friends with people who don’t share my same morals, values and lifestyle because they aren’t ready for a friendship with me. They have to come to an awakening and want better for themselves or they won’t be able to give fully to a friendship. Let’s pray!

 

Father,

I come to you thanking you for your love, protection, forgiveness and mercy. Thank you for healing my heart and showing me that where I am is not where I am staying. Thank you for removing the bad because I believe you are preparing to introduce me with good. I thank you for the pain before the preparation because it is working for my good. Going forward Lord please surround me with people who have a heart for you. My desire is to bring more people to you and make your kingdom full with believers and win over unbelievers. I know that you will heal my heart further and I’m looking forward to the greater that is coming. My prayer for the future is that you give me the discernment and strength to release people who are coming to me with ill intentions. Reveal them Father! I also pray for the people who were shown not to be right in my life. Work on them, work in them and give them a heart that convicts and repents. It is in your name these things are counted done and I Pray,

 

Amen

 

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Don’t forget! I run a Single Christian ladies ministry and it has been such a blessing! It is called Bare Faces Pure Hearts and I’d love to encourage and connect with you on your social media. I’m also merging/ leading another Singles Ministry but I’ll release more information on that in the future! God bless you and share, repost and spread my blogs if they are a blessing to you! I’m standing with you in prayer as always! -Ms. McDonald

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So I’m excited to share with you guys what George shared with me about being a man of God. If you follow him on Twitter or Instagram, you are well aware of the fact that HE GOES IN for God! I stumbled upon him in the celibacy hash-tag and the wisdom from this young man of God blew my mind. I just want to give a special thank you for being the first guy to feature on my blog and sharing your heart. You are an AMAZING example of a young man on fire for God and I appreciate you!

1. Tell me about yourself.

1. I’m a 26 year old young man. My life has been a sensual journey that abruptly and undoubtedly lead me right back to Christ. I am passionate about truth that provokes thoughts that induce curiosity that yields freedom. I am passionate about prosperity. I love achievement and I earnestly believe we all have a giant within us that needs to be awaken. I am the evolution of influence and affluence. Without God I am nothing. He has given me my identity and my purpose. Through my struggle I am able to usher in thought for others; I am here to uplift the name of Christ. He says that if I do this he’ll draw all men unto himself. It’s my faith that propels me forward. Impossibility is the only thing that intrigues me. With faith, impossible things are transmuted into abundant substance. My ultimate goal in life is to see the unveiling of the glory of God through the life of a sinner saved by grace who has subverted my own will for the perfect will of God.

2.Do you practice and promote celibacy? Why?

Yes, I practice as well as promote celibacy. I also refrain from masturbation. I will do so until I am married. The reason I made this choice is because I decided to commit to God. Commitment was a foreign concept to me when I initially began my walk with Christ so there were times that I fell, but I adamantly wanted to get it right. Just committing wasn’t enough for me though; I always need for things to challenge me logically, so God gave me this:

God- Do you love Me?

Me- Yes!

God- Do you love your mother?

Me- Of course!

God- Am I Omnipresent?

Me- Yes!

God- Is your mother omnipresent?

Me- No

God- Do you love your mother more than you love me?

Me- Certainly not!

God- Well why is that you have never had sex or maturbated in the presence of your mother, but you continually do it in my presence?

Me- ……….

This revolutionized my life! The commandment is to have no other gods before Him. What I had mistakenly done was placed my mother before God. A mistake that I would correct once and for all. To love God is to obey Him. There is no love devoid obedience.

3. What does being a man of God mean to you?

Deciding to be a man of God is the greatest decision I have ever made. To me it’s the essence of manhood. With out God, without a beginning there is no reference point. Without a reference man ultimately becomes the measure of all things. We become gods in our on right. If this is the case mankind is susquently, if not immediately reduced to pure relativism. Without God we have no definition of ourselves. He is where it begins. Once a man accepts Christ as his personal savior, then and only then does have truly have the capacity to become a man.

4. Do you believe celibacy is something that all brothers should practice?

Celibacy is certainly something brothers should practice. We establish order. If the man is out of order the home is out of order and disorder is not exclusive to the home. It is viral. Perversion is the plan of the enemy. If men don’t have an intimate relationship with God there is no true divinity within the family or community.

5.What advice would you give to young men who believe they are too flawed to come to Christ?

I would tell them they are exactly where Christ needs them to be to use them mightily! I thought the same thing, but it is the furthest thing from truth. Christ say that “if we would believe in our hearts and confess with our mouths that we would be saved.”

6.What event in your life brought you to Christ?

It was a seemingly random event that brought me to Christ. I was walking through the cafe one day at school NC A&T; my friend stopped me and asked me “Hey G, who are you living for today? God or the devil?” Of course my answer was God, but it was a lie to save face. It was like I had an encounter with the Son of man himself. That moment changed my entire perspective on things and since that day I ask myself that question on a daily basis. It still holds as much weight now as it did then.

7.What words of wisdom do you want to share with brothers in Christ regarding Celibacy & growing closer to God?

The advice I would give would be to take a look at your heart and at your true motives. Do you “love” these women for your sake or for theirs? Think of the way you would like a man to love your daughters. Think of the respect that you would like for him to honor her with. Would you be fair in demanding that respect from any man if you are not man enough to embody those exact statutes? Figure out what it is you want for your life. Start to plan for your death. Think of it as a blueprint for a house. We are God derivatives. We were not put here to be average, therefore we cannot employ average thoughts or deeds. We are called to lead. To be righteous in his sight. We are the healers of society. If we don’t know love, and God is love, then we know anything. If we know nothing our sons will know nothing, if our sons know nothing our daughters have no identity. Ergo a nameless generation. Slaves.

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